a lot of random pointless rants and posts about my life.
mostly kdrama and
cute scenes <3 kcelebs too.
mother is going to disconnect the internet if i don’t get myself together.
i want a green tea frappe from Starbucks otmorrow. everyone’s had them except me!(well, not really) BUT STILL.. since it’s a Fri..might as well :)
i know i’ve forced my mind with my own strength to turn to the Wrod of God admist problems several times. But,each time I forgot a step and fell all the way back down to step 1. But starting now, I want to and will ask the the H.S and its power only to accurately open my eyes to see my spiritual problem before destructing myself in my own useless thoughts Satan gbrings to me. To see how real and true the Word of God is. To really witness and ejoy the power of God even in situations like this. The fact that I’m in this position right now typignn away proves that I am a C.O.G with greater plans prepared. My vessell is so tiny right now though. My PT is to truly and ralistically be fulfilled with the H.S as I start my journey with the H.S guiding me from start to end. My own standard and thoughts to be crumbled in His name.
That day, Han Ga In revealed what she usually does in her daily life saying, “I’m more busy on days when we’re not filming. There are so many things to do. Ususally I wake up, eat breakfast, and go to class. I work out so after I come back from exercising I have to eat again and before I know it, the day’s already over.”
She continued, “I don’t like the gaps in between my schedule so I try to keep it tight.”
When the staff of ‘Feel Good Day’ asked Han Ga In to appear on the show as a guest, she responded, “On shows like this and talk shows, the two things I hear the most are, ‘You’re a lot taller than what I thought’ and ‘Your personality is so different from what you seem like on TV.’ They think this because they thought I would be small, and very careful of my behavior, but I show up and I’m a lot taller than what I seem, laugh out loud, and act carefree.”
most logical..make sense and reasonable answer.
anxiety. when i was younger too.. i remember that one time i felt this way and uneasy was when i had a lot of things on my mind. this time too. so i can’t contol my feelings/emotions. and this time since it had to do a lot with me..i hated myself which is why i unconsciously kept seeking good traits in others, wanting to be like others. then i got confused and starte d thinking there was something wrong with me but truth- everything started with anxiety and the fact that i hated myself , felt sorry. DAT GROSS PAIN in my heart. i mean.. it wouldn’t be normal to get these feelings after being that me for a few weeks. feeling hopeless and unchaing. but i sort of got myself together and know where my problems are coming from. i can’t continue to be anxious about th eproblem and question myself but have a clear mindset. ok so this is the problem. need to get over it. through prayer. but it’s hard.
stop attacking myself again over and over.
- conclusion: the fact that i have these problems isn’t the problem. the fact that i can’t overcome and see God’s greater plan is the problem. the fact that i get caught in worries and hate yself so quickly is the problem. Renew and approach problems with the mindset of prayer.
bananas : good for moody
